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Sometimes I try too hard. I use big words and call things what they are not. And for the moment I am proud. I say, look at me, I know words. But I don't.
And in two months when I look I am disgusted.
Sometimes I try too little. Sometimes I just take the words out of my eyes and put them there on the paper. And they sit and stare right back.
They're just there. Like lumps. Sitting.
But in two months I become the two-month-ago me.
And I am proud.
Sometimes I wish I had a net to catch my thoughts so I could keep them in little jars on my shelves and admire their glow.
I am always writing, writing.
But sometimes I am typing. Sometimes my fingers are flying, flying over the keys.
So fast.
But my thoughts are winning the race. They are breaking the speed limit. And I can't.
Sometimes I have a pencil, and it feels right in my hands. And I write. And it is good.
But slow.
Too slow.
Sometimes I have a pen and it glides, rolling, rolling over my paper's angry teeth. But smooth as it is, it is still slow, slow, slow.
Most of the time I just close my eyes. Most of the times I just write in my head, and let the words race through on their way to nowhere. I smile and watch the show.
Sometimes I try to write them down later. But they are the sweet fading pieces of a half-remembered dream. And it is wrong. All wrong.
Most of the time I just close my eyes and watch the show.
Most of the time no one gets to see but me.
And maybe that is enough.
As long as I am writing, writing, writing.
And in two months when I look I am disgusted.
Sometimes I try too little. Sometimes I just take the words out of my eyes and put them there on the paper. And they sit and stare right back.
They're just there. Like lumps. Sitting.
But in two months I become the two-month-ago me.
And I am proud.
Sometimes I wish I had a net to catch my thoughts so I could keep them in little jars on my shelves and admire their glow.
I am always writing, writing.
But sometimes I am typing. Sometimes my fingers are flying, flying over the keys.
So fast.
But my thoughts are winning the race. They are breaking the speed limit. And I can't.
Sometimes I have a pencil, and it feels right in my hands. And I write. And it is good.
But slow.
Too slow.
Sometimes I have a pen and it glides, rolling, rolling over my paper's angry teeth. But smooth as it is, it is still slow, slow, slow.
Most of the time I just close my eyes. Most of the times I just write in my head, and let the words race through on their way to nowhere. I smile and watch the show.
Sometimes I try to write them down later. But they are the sweet fading pieces of a half-remembered dream. And it is wrong. All wrong.
Most of the time I just close my eyes and watch the show.
Most of the time no one gets to see but me.
And maybe that is enough.
As long as I am writing, writing, writing.
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five people who mean a lot
a: thanks for teaching me how to laughsometimes it is nice to get lost in rolling laughter and hysterical giggles. around you i'm unconscious of worldly things as our jubilance brings me to greater heights and it becomes easier, and also desirable, to live in our moments.
c: your passion can ignite my sometimes dry-stick souland you know better than most that i'm not the kind that sits around the bonfire, but with you i'm reminded that there's more to life than the to-do list and i can relegate it to kindling as we roast marshmallows on its remains.
a: you've always had my back, my darling, and it can't be easy. i'm fairly heavy
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Snare
& she prefered her hind leg caught in those
greedy teeth
her trapp-ed-ness : her happiness
his puncture marks & their bittersweet ooze
to hold her; to let her
in her last moments
belong to him
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OMG where is everything?
Hi everyone!
For those of you who came here to see some short stories, they are here but they are in the folders. I hate clutter. If you don't know where to start reading, here's what the folders include:
DDs and DLDs
These are the Daily Deviations and Daily Lit Deviations I've had featured over the years.
DON'T CALL IT A COMEBACK
These are the pieces that I've written since December 2009 when I came back to deviantART a third time. There are contest winners and losers and stuff I just felt like writing.
SCREAMPROMPTS PROSE
ScreamPrompts is the lit group I run that, if you're a writer, you should join immediately. Not only do I run t
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I wrote this a while ago when I was frustrated with not being able to catch all my thought on paper. And how when I could it was never quite what I intended.
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This is so incredibly accurate that I think you might have stolen my brain in my sleep. Are you sure that's not what happened?
I may need to double-check the lock on the window tonight...
I may need to double-check the lock on the window tonight...